On Perspective and Privilege

Our own perspective, our personal point of view of the world, is all we have. It flows from a nearly undeniable truth that René Descartes brought to the west in saying that our thoughts prove our personal existence ( The old “I think therefore I am” http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cogito_ergo_sum ) Given that our thought defines our reality we can open up to the idea that we are able to change our personal reality by adjusting our thinking. I think this is very true but there is a big problem with putting this solution on a person. All of these realizations depend on a certain amount of luxury.

It is known and true that people have maintained good attitudes through awful and destructive circumstances. People have successfully smiled and breathed with decided freedom in the midst of total oppression. They are rare but they demonstrate that we can change our experience by changing our perception of reality. Knowing that I must now take us down a different path. Depression, pain, anxiety; these are factors that can and will prevent people from being able to change their perspective.

If I were to see a person being pulled out to sea in a riptide and facing the fear of drowning I could tell them that some people have developed meditation techniques that let them slow their metabolism and hold their breath much longer than normal. That would be dumb as hell. In times of depression we can’t see the forces surrounding someone and pulling them down. Offering advice is what we like to do, human beings are problem solvers and very very good ones but when a persons vision of reality is being swallowed up by fear or sadness they can’t see their potential for control.

So what is the point of this knowledge? How can some people shape their own emotions and others not? Why bother trying to tell those who don’t believe that reality is subjective?

Even though the barriers to changing your feelings can be overwhelming it doesn’t change the fact that the core idea is true. (The idea that our own point of view is our own reality and that we have control over that point of view and thus our reality.) It’s up to us all to know when sharing this philosophy is helpful and how to communicate it.

A true undeniable part of the human condition is knowing that everyone is different. There are positive people and negative people. There are the chronically depressed and the happy go lucky AND the average ol’ human. All of us will experience highs and lows and despite our inborn tendency toward one extreme or another we always have the potential at some point in life to feel good enough to learn about our emotional state. Whether we decide to work on that is another story. The biggest difference in how you handle a tough time, I believe, comes from how you prepare yourself when you’re not bottoming out. That brings us to the concept of privilege in this text.

If a person has no time to ponder the world outside of sadness and overwhelming depression they can’t come to an enlightened conclusion. If you have that chance and you can think about what you think then count yourself lucky.
Finally what of the crowd that would say my entire presupposition is false. Well I can’t argue the most base point of the philosophy that I am standing on. If you don’t believe that your own thought, and the use of your senses is the definition of reality for you then I bring my point forward only as a reminder in the hope that you will be at least curious about the topic. I for many years questioned reality in a backwards fashion. I recommended that consciousness wasn’t real because it couldn’t be proven or measured. I now find that measuring is just another idea we made up to make sense out of things our mind doesn’t naturally inform us on.

Finally tell me what you think. Have you effected change by changing only yourself?

On Conspiracy and Society

What’s the biggest conspiracy of all? What’s really at the top of the ladder? Who is pulling all the strings.

Most of the time the answer is no one. Nothing. There is no plan, there is no hoax and there is no ulterior motive. That’s not true all the time. After all the rich are rich and they plan to stay that way. Beyond that most conspiracy theories are rooted in a fear so deep people don’t acknowledge it. The fear that you aren’t important.

It’s deep inside us all. The fear that we could be trivial, inconsequential. As well as the fear that no one is running anything. If we can identify that someone or a group is trying to corrupt us or take away what is ours we find purpose in the fact that we have something to defend. It proves we are real and valid members of society to think that others want to take away our validity. Most of the time it’s self perpetuated aggrandizing.

The second fear, the idea that no one is running anything and we are making huge mistakes due to oversights and apathy, is bigger than us all. No one mentions it. No one rebuts anthers idea saying that our grand problems are our own to accept. We will create a scapegoat instead because honestly it’s too painful and difficult to face all that is wrong. We are each human beings that form a fabric of reality from our own existence on this earth and we all exist together in an undeniably linked way. The great ills we might identify are not an attack on us, they are us. ‘Evil’ is part of the reality of humans and every one of us is a part of problems and of solutions.

So what? How do we address … reality? How do we take on greed and disparity and defending of what we find right? Well I don’t know. I didn’t start writing this because I have a solution for you. I want you to think.

The next time your fear breeds hate, or more simply when you feel wronged, think about what you blame. I’m not asking you not to lay blame. That is a part of what we are and how we work. Don’t deny your human nature but do pause. Ask yourself why you think that. Whether you are right to blame, and whether you’ve contributed to the problem you’re experiencing in your life. For you or for someone else.

Taking time to think about why we think what we think will guide us to a continuously improving society. We are people and people are amazing. We’ve made damn near everything. We’ve fed billions upon billions of others, we’ve innovated in ways that nothing else ever has for destructive and constructive ends so don’t despair about what we may become and how we are declining and devolving because YOU are Amazing. You reading this are an incredible being and you share life with a limitless supply of other imaginations. Work together, or better yet live together, with all, and let play and open thought guide you and thus all up and on and forward because you, and we are

amazing.

Monitor Your Own Uptime

If you manage websites you know how bad it feels to have someone tell you a site is not only down but it’s been that way for 2 hours … or days. There are solutions out there to monitor your sites uptime but many of them charge and are at best clunky. I’m going to share with you a simple php script I wrote to monitor the sites I maintain for my work and my personal sites.

I’ll assume you can use PHP already in this, if you can’t start here. First you want an array of the sites Continue reading

If You’re in IT Learn to Use a Mac

I am a computer programmer by trade and a long time computer user. I’ve had a Macintosh Performa 405, a Compaq Presario, a poorly build hand made computer, a Macbook Pro, a Dell Vostro 1000 laptop, a better built custom computer, a toshiba touchscreen tablet pc, 2 kinds of iphone and a sony vaio that I am writing on now. I’ve administrated several linux servers remotely and run both red hat and ubuntu on home computers (deciding finally it’s not worth the work to run linux at home). Suffice it to say I’ve used a lot of computers.

In using dozens of different computers over the years I’ve noticed one thing, they are all computers. All of them do the same things. You can write documents, connect to networks, install programs, print, and browse the internet. None of this is particularly hard to figure out on a Mac but across the board I have seen IT departments that flatly give up when asked to do any of them using a non-windows computer.

10 years ago you could get away with acting like macs were a foriegn language and not supporting them but not today. Apple is the biggest company IN THE WORLD. It actually just beat oil in that competition. Every company is vying to get iPads pointed at their website or app and every consumer is either using or wishing they could afford a mac.

I know it’s easy to administrate for a group of windows pcs over a network but when it’s time to do your job it doesn’t matter what’s easy it matters what needs to get done. Figure macs out and be ready to work on them or someone else will and your value will fade away.

Another Touch Screen Phone

The HTC Rhyme just came out for Verizon. It seems to be a good phone and HTC is a good company but honestly who cares?

It’s another Android phone with a big hi res touch screen and cameras and an LED light and a cool interface. It has all the features of an iPhone which has all the features of a Droid which has all the features of an Evo. Nothing matters anymore. Continue reading

Beale Street

When you talk about Beale Street do your friends say things like “Uuugh, why would anyone want to go there?” Do you say those things? I don’t understand it.

Beale Street is fun. It’s really fun! There is live music all the time. For free anyone can walk down the street and hear 2 to 7 live musicians that are all really good playing blues and rock and roll all day. Want a beer? Walk in any direction and you’ll probably bump into a counter where you can buy a large beer to drink and carry around with you place to place. Hungry? Despite what most memphians seem to believe there is really good food on Beale too. Mrs Pollys may have the best chicken and waffles in town, Johnny G’s is true good New Orleans creole food, Dyers burgers was featured on the food network for their long tradition of greasy burgers.

There’s even goats! Two live goats have a pen in the Silky O’Sullivans courtyard. Can we put this to rest memphis? I know it’s crazy on a friday or saturday night but that’s like hating the grocery store because you only go there at 5pm on weekdays. There are also a lot of tourists down there… why not meet some and expand your horizons? That’s all. I love Memphis and I love downtown so I had to say something about it. Thanks for reading and have a good day.

Been a While

It’s been a while since I wrote anything. The last post on programming languages was a bit difficult and the break was nice. I’m always open to topics people are interested in learning about and you can submit them via comments here. I have been more active lately exercising and doing parkour. In fact my group got an article in the paper for doing parkour in Memphis. I’m pretty happy with it and its done a lot of good for letting people know parkour is available here.

I’m also running a lot to get ready for Luv Mud, a dirt and obstacle 5k race. I’m really bad at running so I’m doing a lot of it. I want to be competitive but that may be unrealistic. I guess that’s all for now. I’ll be working on another tech article soon, till then stay happy.